Sunday, November 29, 2009

Remorse...






I said a lot to you,
thinking you were listening,
But while I was at it,
you just planned your next move,
of how to suck the last penny out of me,
of how to use me,
in the purpose of your need.

I spoke and I spoke,
till my breath ran out,
And my emotions gave way
to anger and guilt.

As I kept on crawling,
Surrounded by dead emotions,
that you preferred to play,
But my feelings stayed unperturbed,
and my words oozed undeterred.

I tried to tell you,
about my hatred,
about my love
about my passions
and about my remorseless side
Tried, till my words fell on numb and deaf ears
And under the skin they began to crawl

But with a bowl of love
And a mind of revenge,
Asked for one last supper,
My incessant emotions,
they continued to float,
through the hollows of your fuckn head.

Your brute heart,
Unflinching lips,
Unfettered eyes,
Filled me, brimmed me,
With winter cold emotions
And my frustrations began to pinch.

Supper it was,
The light was dim,
The calm wind
Flowing through the chasms
Of the blood red terracotta.

I could see
The ignorance in your eyes,
Indifference in your slithered hand,
For will it last long,

All I wanted to see
Was the suffering,
That I had suffered,
That you made me go through,
but I just couldn't cry.

And then it started
As your hands shaked
Under the dark clouds
Of my terror.

A wry smile from me
And your worst nightmare,
Turned out to be true
As you lay there,
In pain
You body blasphemed
In your last breathe.

I watched in cruel pleasure,
with my feet at your chest,
and vengeance at mine,
But how could I let you go
Let you go so easily....

It was time that you'd pray.
You prayed
Or maybe cursed me.
Fuckin hardly matters,
It didn't even reach my ears,

The shine on your eyes,
Was that of a blade,
I had sharpened
With my emotional sufferings
Only to set you free

And without any remorse,
Remorse,
that I had tried to speak to you about,
I tore through your bastard lungs,
your devilish, motherfuckn soul.

But that was not all,
You deserved more,
For all that,
You made me go through.

But how could I let you go
Let you go so easily.....

With my sole,
That you once gifted,
With all your soul
Your bloody mouth
I smothered,

As you finally begged in mercy,
but little did I bother.
Remember, no remorse.
How you hoped,
now in bloody despair,
That had you listened
This night hadn’t come.

And there I stood,
Accomplished and victorious,
A wry smile.
Your lifeless body,
Lay in a pool of dark gory blood,
Blood that just caused hurt...

But how could I let you go
Let you go so easily.....

Monday, November 2, 2009

That elusive call....A lost dream...





Every night I wait for that elusive call...
Eyes waiting for the screen to light up...
Ears waiting for that one beep...

And then...as if the angels smiled upon me...
My eyes...windows to my heart...a bridge to hers...
Saw that shimmering light on the glass panel...

As if He Himself wanted me to sleep a good nights sleep...
My ears...which hear the mystery of pain, its depth...and eloquent melody...
Heard the sharp tune piercing through my ear drums...

And gales waned and waxed...as if asking me to let the words come out...
My hands reached out...hands of heart trying to reach another heart...
As if a messenger sends out a message of peace and love...

Just then as if destiny mocked at me...
Dawn broke...
Bright sunshine fell on my happy face...

Before I could think...a tear rolled down my cheek...
For the wait had taken the life out of my hopeful eyes...
But the innocent mind dreamt of what it wanted...

I got duped by my own fate...
The watery eyes...blocked the sunshine...
It was all dark and hazy...

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